My regrets look just like texts I shouldn't send
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The hurt is specific. Lyrics are 119 of 136 lines; interviews are 17. 2Pac has 6, and Juice WRLD and Kid Cudi have 5 each, with Gang Starr and the Geto Boys at 4. Kid Cudi's lines take in the saddest lie, an open sore, and the pain that numbing never fixes. The Geto Boys' "Mind Playing Tricks on Me" (1991) has three lines, and the tell is "I'm paranoid." Bone Thugs-N-Harmony's "Tha Crossroads" (1996) has three, and 2Pac's "So Many Tears" (1995) has two. Juice WRLD's "Legends" and "Lucid Dreams" are the later entries. A year is on 120 lines, and 55 of those are in the 2010s.
Loud in our laughter, silent in our sufferin'
All this money, power, fame and I can't make you reappear
The way that was mixed, the fucking hiss—that song feels like when depression hugs you.
I gotta make it to Heaven for going through Hell
It's fucked up when your mind's playin' tricks on ya
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I know it wasn't you 'cause you passed away, Dad
I'm not mad at God, I just can't get out of bed
Fear is stronger than love, remember that.
So now I'm fallin' out of love, feel like I need a parachute (Ayy)
Some of us fall and some of us fly
But at the end of the book baby all of us die
It wasn't until I left that I realized it's not weird to grow up in certain cities and, by the age of 27 or 28, for all of your friends to still be alive.
Today, I watched a man die in a hole from the comfort of my home
I don't get waves of missin' you anymore
They're more like tsunami tides in my eyes (Yeah, yeah)
I am happy, that's just the saddest lie
I won that fight, I lost that war
My only fear is fear itself
I ain't afraid to die, more afraid of myself
My heart's an open sore that I hope heals soon
Routine day with a dirt cheap brush
Then a week goes by and it goes untouched
Then two, then three, then a month
And the rest of your life, you beat yourself up
And save breath, and avoid you, sober and upset in the morning
I wanna scream, "Fuck you, Lucy"
But the problem is I love you, Lucy
So instead I'ma finish my drink and have another
It's gon' hurt me to hate you, but lovin' you's worse
Four walls just starin' at a nigga
I'm paranoid, sleepin' with my finger on the trigger
In my neighbourhood ain't nothin changed but the seasons
Your picture's still on my mirror, and it's so scary
I swear I still ain't looked at your obituary
I often wish that I could save everyone, but I'm a dreamer
My life on Earth was hell, you understand?
But when I die I'm goin' to hell again
It's to the point where I love and I hate you
And I cannot change you, so I must replace you, oh
Moms smoking rocks same stuff I'm sellin'
So who's wrong her or me
She addicted to the high, I'm addicted to the cash
Almost put my hands on her when I caught her in my stash
But for me, personally, you can only manifest joy by letting go of your pain!
Ain't no love lost, but wasn't no love shown
Life is a circle of pain
The darkest clouds, end up like the purplest rain
The secret is I'm actually broken
I look into mother's stomach, wonder if you are a boy or a girl
Turnin' this woman's womb into a tomb
But she and I agree, a seed we don't need
You would've been much more than a mouth to feed
I've suffered, just so I could return harder
It's a dark science when your friends start dyin'
Like, "How could he go? He was part-lion"
They say you can't turn a bad girl good
But once a good girl's gone bad, she's gone forever
You'll find a lesson in your pain
Will I die slain like my king by a terrorist?
Will my woman be Coretta, take my name and cherish it?
If you love someone, you should say it often
You'll never know when they'll be layin' in a coffin
Wake up, it's important that you know that
No one on Earth is promised tomorrow...
I know I have a purpose, but I don't see the purpose
You could try and numb the pain, but it'll never go-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh away
Damn, was it my fault? Something I did?
To make a father leave his first kid at seven doin' my first bid? (Uh)
To all my friends I grew up wit', who grew up fatherless
I know through me you live vicariously
I want you to know that we ain't no better than you and yours
We all needed therapy
Don't nobody judge nobody, only broken hearts allowed
I might just cut all the tongues out your sneakers
Smash your TV from Best Buy
You gon' turn me into Left Eye
Went from daddy's little girl to daddy's heart attack
They killed Martin Luther King and all he did was spoke (21)
Yeah, hold on, just hear me out
They tell me I'ma be a legend, I don't want that title now
'Cause all the legends seem to die out, what the fuck is this 'bout?
In order to survive, got to learn to live with regrets
When I be ridin', man, I swear I see her face at every turn
Tryna get my Usher on but I can't let it burn
My name is Marshall Mathers, I'm an alcoholic (Hi, Marshall)
Take me away from all the pressure and all the pain
Guns make us feel powerful but they don’t do no good
LA be bright but still a dark city
So come get your happy and your new titties
The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest
Beyoncé on my stereo, "Resentment" on repeat
I always want the truth, but it's dangerous (Dangerous, oh)
Can I sleep for a while?
Can I work on myself?
I lost my dawg to the fame, I charge it all to the game
I been havin' trouble sleepin', battlin' these demons
Wondering what's the thing that keeps me breathin': is it money, fame or neither?